IF I STAY .. it is a young adult novel by Gayle Forman, published in 2009. she is an  American young adult author. she is a winner of award ”Goodreads Choice Awards Best Young Adult Fiction”

Basically GAYLE FORMAN is an award-winning author and journalist whose articles have appeared in numerous publications, including Seventeen, Cosmopolitan and Elle in the US. She lives in Brooklyn with her family. In 2002, she and her husband Nick took a trip around the world. From her journeys, she garnered a wealth of experiences and information which later served as a basis for her first book a travelogue You Can’t Get There From Here: A Year On The Fringes Of A Shrinking World. In 2007 she published her first young adult novel Sisters in Sanity which she based on an article she had written for Seventeen. In 2009, Forman released If I Stay, In January 2013, Forman released “Just One Day”.

Forman won the 2009 NAIBA Book of the Year Awards and is a 2010 Indie Choice Honor Award winner for If I Stay. The film adaptation of “If I Stay”, starring Chloe Grace Moretz, was released in the United States on August 22, 2014. The sequel to “If I Stay”, titled “Where She Went”, was released in 2011.

“If I Stay” is not plainly focused on telling a story but it’s more of delivering a life lesson that every human in the midst of life crisis should realize.

It is a young adult novel. The book centers on Mia, a young cellist whose life is imperfect but securely ordinary. She is a girl who is deeply in love with Music, her love for music is deep. Her family is very friendly and jolly type. she has one younger brother teddy  and a mother and father in her family. Inshort Mia is a very gifted cellist. She has everything she could ever want, a loving family, an adoring boyfriend, an amazing best friend, and an amazing career ahead of her in music.

Mia is a quiet, kind and a musically gifted girl. Above all things, she loves her family, her cello and her friend. Adam (her boyfriend) plays guitar and sings for his band “Shooting Star”. Mia’s family liked Adam. she said ”I think Dad likes Adam” pg 71 .But later small fights start with Adam because Mia wanted Adam to make Kim’s (Mia’s bestfriend) his friend but he refuses everytime. Mia’s said , ”After we been together about three months, we had a huge fight about it. Adam said, I m not dating Kim. I’m dating you, he said, after I accused him of not being nice enough to her. she said , ”So what? You have lots of female friends. Why not add her to the stable? Adam shrugged. I don’t know. Its just not there. pg 73

But somehow, the life was easy not hard as it will be in the next. who knew about it.  she’s just seventh year old girl. who loses her family in a car accident and is now in a coma. but strangely with the aftermath of the gruesome accident as Mia decides if she wants to live or die. but she don’t want to wakeup like an orphan.

After the accident she don’t understand what happen to her and where is her family. she starts finding her family . ”if I were dead, I like to think Mom and Dad would’ve come for me by now” pg 19, Mia is talking to herself.

I assume im not but Im not in my body, either, can I go anywhere? Am I a ghost? Could I transport myself to a beach in Hawaii? Again its Mia pg 27.

she’s waiting for Adam and after a long wait, Adam came with Kim and she was shocked to see them together because they both use to dislikes eachother. But it was kims who informed Adam about accident. Mia’s waiting for a gentle touch by Adam.

”All day long, Ive been imagining Adams arrival, and in my fantasy, I rush to greet him, even though he cant see me and even though, from what I can tell so far, its nothing like that movie Ghost, where you can walk through your loved ones so that they feel your presence” pg 65

The end of the story was on the end of Mia, either she wants to live or die and she chooses to live just because of Adam. I loved the whole novel but the last scene i liked the most when her spirit returns on her body and she chooses to live for Adam.

The best lovable touchy lines of the this novel which i loved the most are following :

*But the you who you are tonight is the same you I was in love with yesterday, the same you ™ll be in love with tomorrow. Pg 65 (when she feels uncomfortable and all wired by her makeup and dress, she asked Adam about it and in reply he said these cute lines )

*Adam said quietly. But I’m still here. And I’m still crazy in love with you. pg 137

*Adam is mumbling something now. In a low voice. Over and over he is saying: please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Finally, he stops and looks at my face. Please, Mia, he implores.  Dont make me write a song (pg 129)  (The touchy lines from the novel)

This book discusses about love aswell that how Mia choose to live just because of Adam love. she lost her family but still Adam was here to love her.

Mia has a chance to live but she was letting it go by false misconception.  she was in deep thinking, that what’s the reason to live or stay in this world. Her parents died after accident but she was struggling for her life just for her brother. But soon after few hours when she found that her brother dies too, she was hopeless, Even she loved Adam and she could lived for him, but she wasn’t sure that she’s going to get selected for her music school or whether things which have been gone wrong between her and Adam are going to be fine if she’ll wake up. So all she was thinking to let it go and was ready to move to the next door after life. She was hopeless, but hope never dies. It find it way. Although she was hopeless that nothing has been left in her life. Adam gave her that hope to live. He told her that she has been selected in the music school Julliard and hes’s going to be at her side, where ever she goes. He gave her that hope so that she could stay.

Like in this novel, everything change in a second, Mia lost her family forever though they were living a very good life.

Like a traditional thriller, this is a novel based upon choices. However, the choices aren’t which villain to chase, which door to open, or which agent was leaking information. The main character must choose between returning to her destroyed life or simply letting it all go. I hadn’t planned on getting serious about If I Stay. It was a passing fancy with a gorgeous cover. But every moment I spent reading Forman’s masterpiece drew me in more.

Mia never dies, but her parents do. It’s clear from when she discovers her parents are dead (not really a spoiler – it’s on the back and within the first 10 pages. The point of the book (and the title) is that, because her body is in a coma, she’s the one who decides if she stays.

Simultaneously tragic and hopeful, this is a romantic, riveting and ultimately uplifting story about memory, music, living, dying, loving.

This book has a strong message. “If i stay” as the title shows that there is a decision which in unable to find its way. Sometimes in life we have to make decisions and if we fail we became just hopeless and  try to get ourselves out of the situation. We just think that we’ve failed but it is a universal fact that hope is everywhere. Whether if we think that there is no hope which has been left, hope finds it way to us. So all we need to do is just make the right decision rather than running out the situation.